I can't help this good feeling. tada!!

Stuck in a moment.

Di mo ako mapapaupo sa starbucks na mag-isa lang na tipong may iniiintay. Di ako pala tingin sa tao. Kaya di ko mabasa ang mga mata nila. Defensive mode lang naman ata ang kamanhiran ko eh. Ayaw ko lang naman kasing mahalata. Pero kapag ako na ang nagiinitiate ng conversation, kaya ko naman palang magpatuloy tuloy ng walang dull moment(or so I thought) Ang saya magrisk minsan, you will discover things which you think you are not capable of doing. Instead you have surpassed your own limits.

See, things are starting change for the better good. For my own good

Talking to strangers is an awkward feeling, ayaw ko pa naman ng awkwardness, pero isa syang force na di maiiwasan kapag meet-ups ang pinaguusapan. Rejection din, di mo maaalis sa paghahanap ng relationship. I am trying to change my old mataray personality and dress up a new one-friendly. Tutal, life has 525,600 minutes. So ang daming opportunity ang di dapat palagpasin. Isa na dun ang meeting new friends. I usually meet up with a stranger wherein I won't have to invent a canned statement(which I have done in the past which results in failure). Overall my so-called "journey" is starting to reap it's benefits. Being comfortable in your own skin has it's perks din no! You don't have to act or think your someone else because you fell that yourself would suffice. It doesn't matter anyways.

Next time, I'll go to a bar alone. That is one of my fears which I have to conquer too.

(Bayaan mo ang ang taglish post ko. Feeling sosy lang!)